A Life Poured Out

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I was so impacted by this one sentence I read in Ann Voscamp's book called The Broken Way that my spirit jumped within me.

  • "The cells that only benefit themselves are known as cancer … Cancer is what refuses to die to self."1

I have been wrestling for weeks now with an issue of whether or not to succumb to external pressure and continue to silence the words God has been pounding on my heart to share with the world or … choose to be free.

God never fails to speak when I openly ask for wisdom without telling Him how I want things to go. Here is my answer.

This morning in my devotions it started with that quote above, where the whole chapter made me quake in my boots. It was all about the pouring out of one's brokenness. So, I put that aside and picked up another book. The next chapter I was to read was called "Thy Will Be Done." So, I put that one down too.

Then I picked up the sacred Word of God and I read Psalm 92 … thinking a calming Psalm when the Spirit is pricking, poking, and prodding, may be just the soothing balm I needed. Wrong!

I read …

  • "It is good to give thanks to the LORD (Yahweh), And to sing praises to Your name, O Most High. To declare Your lovingkindness in the morning, And Your faithfulness every night."

God asked me … does this mean just privately? Or does it mean with your life, every fiber of your being, as you walk, talk, as you write, as you share me?

I read on … my fingers trembling upon page.

  • V 5&6  "O Lord, how great are Your works! Your thoughts are very deep. A senseless man does not know, Nor does a fool understand this."

The message was clear. I was not to expect everyone to understand what God has called me to do.

Now my heart was kicking. I was listening. By the time I got through a number of verses on enemies, the wicked, workers of iniquity down to verse 11, "Those who rise up against me." I understood clearly … don't expect to do the Lord's work and not have those who will rise up against.

Then the crowning joy, the reason one would step out and obey, the reason we listen to the Holy Spirit … There is a dying hurting world around us who need our story, our authenticity, the hope that Jesus can heal their broken heart, their abuse, their brokenness. Who else would they receive this message from and believe in healing, other than through the one who was abused, who did have a broken heart, who has suffered like they have suffered? Why does God choose to use our brokenness? I don't know but He does. I think it has something to do with the fact he was broken Himself for our sins, for our failure. He does not want us to be self-centered, worried about self-image, too proud to tell of our brokenness and how He healed us. He does not want us to be a "cell" that only benefits ourselves, for that is nothing more than cancerous. What He says in His word is this …

  • "For those who are planted in the house of the LORD shall flourish in the courts of our God. They shall still bear fruit in old age; They shall be fresh and flourishing."

Oh, the beautiful calm and peace in surrender. I realized that what I want, what I desire, more than life itself, more than the strife that will come against me, more than the pain inflicted by those who you would expect it from least … for they profess the name of Christ; I long to follow where Jesus leads.

Jesus was all about the down and outer, the broken, the bruised. He was not for the art of self-preservation, nor for the self-righteous, or the cell that serves only itself. Jesus was for the ones who need to hear hope. And we as Christians have the very hope-giving truth to pour into their anemic veins, if we but humble ourselves before the Lord and tell our broken story and how He … "O Most High" has redeemed, renewed, revived, replenished, restored. If we are not too proud to be real as the very Scriptures are themselves from beginning to end. Adam and Eve brought sin to the world, Abraham was a liar, Moses was a murderer, King David was an adulterer, Mary Magdalene was delivered from seven demons, Paul killed Christians, Thomas was a doubter, Peter was a betrayer and on it goes. If the very word of God is not afraid to tell the story from sinner to saved, why are we? For we have all fallen short of the glory of God and can only be saved by His grace.

I encourage as you go about this week. As you call out to the "O Most High" in the morning and in the evening and in any waking moments in between, ask him how you can be more authentic, more real, more open in your sharing of His amazing grace, and I will do the same.

With such a message hammered in three-way, surrender is my only option. And so I fall on my knees. I ask God for his power to wash away the encumbrance of what people think of me. I ask that my brokenness be a bridge to others of what my amazing Savior has done to save and to heal. For I want to bear fruit for Jesus … more than life itself. I desire to obey and in so doing …be a light, be that encouraging word, be fresh and flourishing until my days on earth are done.

Listen to Psalm 92 done to music by Paul Baloche "O Most High" ... Wonderful.

1) Ann Voscamp, The Broken Way, (Grand Rapids: Zondervan, 2016), 95.

2) All Scripture taken from NKJV, (Thomas Nelson, Inc. 2007)


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Comments 31

Guest - Jennifer Cook on Monday, 24 February 2020 04:33

Beautiful post. I, too, have read Ann's books. She makes you think!

Beautiful post. I, too, have read Ann's books. She makes you think!
Blossom Turner on Monday, 24 February 2020 09:01

Dear Jennifer. Thank you for your encouraging words. And yes, I am not through the book yet, but wow does she make you think.

Dear Jennifer. Thank you for your encouraging words. And yes, I am not through the book yet, but wow does she make you think.
Guest - Viola Hickey on Monday, 24 February 2020 14:34

This is a beautiful example of a heart that desires obedience to God above the opinion of others! I love your heart for Jesus Sis!

This is a beautiful example of a heart that desires obedience to God above the opinion of others! I love your heart for Jesus Sis!
Blossom Turner on Monday, 24 February 2020 15:17

Thanks dear sister of mine ... you have walked the road less travelled and know what sacrificial living is all about. I knew you would understand what this was saying.

Thanks dear sister of mine ... you have walked the road less travelled and know what sacrificial living is all about. I knew you would understand what this was saying.
Guest - Tish on Monday, 24 February 2020 16:04

Beautiful blog post that also resonates. Prayers for triumphant peace and continued power.

Beautiful blog post that also resonates. Prayers for triumphant peace and continued power.
Blossom Turner on Monday, 24 February 2020 16:26

Thanks Tish, May God bless your walk, and I thank you for your prayers.

Thanks Tish, May God bless your walk, and I thank you for your prayers.
Guest - Laura Thomas on Monday, 24 February 2020 16:50

Less of me, more of Him... thank you for your vulnerable words and for sharing your heart, Blossom. God has been whispering to me about FRUIT from many different sources— clearly, I need to listen!

Less of me, more of Him... thank you for your vulnerable words and for sharing your heart, Blossom. God has been whispering to me about FRUIT from many different sources— clearly, I need to listen!
Blossom Turner on Monday, 24 February 2020 18:45

I like that ... less of me and more of Him. May your fruit be bountiful.

I like that ... less of me and more of Him. May your fruit be bountiful.
Guest - Marilyn Kriete on Monday, 24 February 2020 17:33

Thanks for this, Blossom. I can feel your heart pour through your words.

Thanks for this, Blossom. I can feel your heart pour through your words.
Blossom Turner on Monday, 24 February 2020 18:46

Thanks Marilyn. Heart and words the two things we have in common.

Thanks Marilyn. Heart and words the two things we have in common.
Guest - Janith Hooper on Monday, 24 February 2020 18:10

Blossom, dear friend. This was another outstanding blog. You have a true gift of disclosing God's truths with clarity and understanding. I enjoy every one of your blogs. This one really resonated in so many ways. I particularly love this: The cells that only benefit themselves are known as cancer … Cancer is what refuses to die to self."1 Oh my goodness, this statement is so profound. Thank you for sharing your wisdom about it and much more with us. God Bless you!

Blossom, dear friend. This was another outstanding blog. You have a true gift of disclosing God's truths with clarity and understanding. I enjoy every one of your blogs. This one really resonated in so many ways. I particularly love this: The cells that only benefit themselves are known as cancer … Cancer is what refuses to die to self."1 Oh my goodness, this statement is so profound. Thank you for sharing your wisdom about it and much more with us. God Bless you!
Blossom Turner on Monday, 24 February 2020 18:49

Thanks Janith. The way you encourage is a beautiful gift. So many times you have encouraged my writing. I do believe that one of the ways your fruit grows and flourishes is in your encouraging words to others. Keep up His kingdom work.

Thanks Janith. The way you encourage is a beautiful gift. So many times you have encouraged my writing. I do believe that one of the ways your fruit grows and flourishes is in your encouraging words to others. Keep up His kingdom work.
Guest - Suzie Zanewich on Monday, 24 February 2020 18:54

This post is incredible and profound! I love how you share your heart with us,
I am in awe of God’s timing and how he works through you to speak to others. He has been working on my heart about this exact subject for some time. Galatians 1:10 comes to my mind often. Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings or of God?
My heart is also to follow Jesus. I want to bear fruit for Him, to obey and be a light.
The thought of making myself vulnerable, exposing myself for all to see still holds me back. I continue to fear those that may come against me.
I believe the reason we are afraid to tell our stories began with Adam and Eve. They realized they were naked and they used fig leaves to cover themselves. They hid themselves because they were afraid to be seen, to be exposed and vulnerable. And so are we.
It is a difficult thing to open ourselves up to criticism, to possible rejection; but being exposed and vulnerable is the only path to healing.
God is waiting for us to begin the process of healing. And in time, if we are willing, He will heal us enough to tell our stories and help others.
I am a work in progress and I know He will get me where I need to be. He has already brought me so far and I am grateful.
Thank you for this wonderful post! Thank you for being vulnerable. You pave the way for us to be vulnerable too. Bless you!

This post is incredible and profound! I love how you share your heart with us, I am in awe of God’s timing and how he works through you to speak to others. He has been working on my heart about this exact subject for some time. Galatians 1:10 comes to my mind often. Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings or of God? My heart is also to follow Jesus. I want to bear fruit for Him, to obey and be a light. The thought of making myself vulnerable, exposing myself for all to see still holds me back. I continue to fear those that may come against me. I believe the reason we are afraid to tell our stories began with Adam and Eve. They realized they were naked and they used fig leaves to cover themselves. They hid themselves because they were afraid to be seen, to be exposed and vulnerable. And so are we. It is a difficult thing to open ourselves up to criticism, to possible rejection; but being exposed and vulnerable is the only path to healing. God is waiting for us to begin the process of healing. And in time, if we are willing, He will heal us enough to tell our stories and help others. I am a work in progress and I know He will get me where I need to be. He has already brought me so far and I am grateful. Thank you for this wonderful post! Thank you for being vulnerable. You pave the way for us to be vulnerable too. Bless you!
Blossom Turner on Tuesday, 25 February 2020 11:22

Dear Suzie, I agree we are all a work in progress and the goal is to be healed. Then we can help others on their path. Your wonderful words of encouragement are a balm to my soul and a fire that ignites the passion within me. To have someone who gets what I am talking about is so wonderful. Thank you.

Dear Suzie, I agree we are all a work in progress and the goal is to be healed. Then we can help others on their path. Your wonderful words of encouragement are a balm to my soul and a fire that ignites the passion within me. To have someone who gets what I am talking about is so wonderful. Thank you.
Guest - Donna Stobert on Monday, 24 February 2020 19:29

My Dear Sweet 🐝 I always love reading your blog and being challenged.
Thank you for being obedient to the leading of the Holy Spirit. Only that kind of courage and strength can come from the Lord. So continue to be strong in Him!
The words you write on the page are full of life and from a heart that is healed.
You are a light in this dark world! I love you Sis!

My Dear Sweet 🐝 I always love reading your blog and being challenged. Thank you for being obedient to the leading of the Holy Spirit. Only that kind of courage and strength can come from the Lord. So continue to be strong in Him! The words you write on the page are full of life and from a heart that is healed. You are a light in this dark world! I love you Sis!
Blossom Turner on Tuesday, 25 February 2020 11:29

Dear Donna, You have a world that touches the lives of the elderly through the help of your hands and feet ... you understand what it means to help a world bigger than yourself, no wonder you get what I am saying. Thanks for your encouraging words and the light you shine in my world.

Dear Donna, You have a world that touches the lives of the elderly through the help of your hands and feet ... you understand what it means to help a world bigger than yourself, no wonder you get what I am saying. Thanks for your encouraging words and the light you shine in my world.
Guest - Monica Bruns on Monday, 24 February 2020 19:44

Great revelation - thank you for showing your journey and desire to serve God and your honesty / humanity with the struggle we all have in worrying about what others might think. Thank you for challenging me to be more open, share what God has done for me, knowing that he will use that. You are an inspiration

Great revelation - thank you for showing your journey and desire to serve God and your honesty / humanity with the struggle we all have in worrying about what others might think. Thank you for challenging me to be more open, share what God has done for me, knowing that he will use that. You are an inspiration
Blossom Turner on Tuesday, 25 February 2020 11:37

Dear Monica, Thank you for your encouraging words and the authenticity of your life. You too have an amazing story of grace that the hurting world is waiting to hear. Our childhoods are mirrored in a lot of ways, and the damage done to us as children and how it impacted our adult life is so relevant to a hurting world. You are an amazing encourager.

Dear Monica, Thank you for your encouraging words and the authenticity of your life. You too have an amazing story of grace that the hurting world is waiting to hear. Our childhoods are mirrored in a lot of ways, and the damage done to us as children and how it impacted our adult life is so relevant to a hurting world. You are an amazing encourager.
Guest - Monica Bruns on Tuesday, 25 February 2020 12:41

❤️

❤️
Guest - Ally T on Monday, 24 February 2020 22:54

Proud of you mom! You’ve spent too long living in fear of what the Pharisees and hypocrites will think of you. Be free, tell your story, make a difference in the world.

Proud of you mom! You’ve spent too long living in fear of what the Pharisees and hypocrites will think of you. Be free, tell your story, make a difference in the world.
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