God if you are the Sun, then I want to be the Moon!A favorite song writer/singer of mine, Phil Wickham, wrote a song called “Sun and Moon,” with these amazing words referring to God… "If you are the sun, then I want to be the moon,I want to reflect the light that shines from you.” These words conjure a depth of thinking within my soul that inspires yet drops me to my knees. I want to reflect ...

When Life is Noisy…I started a FULL-TIME job at a doctor’s office. I am called a “runner” for good reason. I run from 8:00am until 5:00- 5:30pm + depending on the day, with only one half hour break. No sitting, no chairs, on my feet moving at a frantic pace. The word "busy" does not quite suffice.By the end of the day my feet throb, my legs feel like rubber, all I can think about is finding a chai...

HERE IS AN EMAIL FROM MY SISTER IN THE MIDST OF MY TURMOIL, NOT LONG AFTER BETRAYAL HIT MY MARRIAGE.MAY THIS EMAIL WRITTEN TO ME...GIVE YOU DEAR HURTING SOUL THE SAME ENCOURAGEMENT IT GAVE ME!Hope is like a spring Sunflower - It pops up with the first touch of sun (The Son!)Dearest Blossom, (Place your own name here.)I've been pondering the idea of faith and hope and how intricately they intertwin...

A Common SinfulnessAfter betrayal of any sort, be it a family member, spouse, business partner, or friend, a question bursts on the scene of our consciousness. Why should we show mercy to the offender, the one who has caused such pain, anger and loss?The answer to this question came at a price—I had to look at myself.For months after disclosure, raw anger fueled thoughts of revenge.  Where previou...

Life has taken an unexpected turn.I am currently thrust into full time work at a doctor’s office. The money will be a blessing, but the gift of precious time severely restricted.Happier times once again!I look at this opportunity with a purpose in mind…there is reason God has presented this job. Not one thing happens by chance, therefore I open my eyes. I wait. I pray. I listen.This job dictates a...

I pray  you will find encouragement today…in that deepest part of your aching spirit. May a message of hope be found in these following verses.Isaiah 35:1-6 The desert and the parched land will be glad: the wilderness will rejoice and blossom. Like the crocus, it will burst into bloom: it will rejoice greatly and shout for joy. …Strengthen the feeble hands, steady the knees that give way; say to t...

Like me you may wonder how you did not know that betrayal lived right beneath your nose.It is a reasonable question.Why didn’t I know? How did I miss the signs? What could I have done differently?Second-guessing myself became a perpetual thought process in the aftermath. I wanted to understand how adultery happened even while I blissfully believed I had a great marriage, great sex life, and great ...

“IN THE MOMENT”Every Monday I will include a journal entry of when I lived in that place of acute pain from betrayal. I include this raw and very personal reflection for one purpose only, to set the “before and after” stage. Every Wednesday I will tackle the subject of Monday's journal entry from a healed perspective. My hope and prayer is that these two drastically different scenarios will instil...

Spring—that time of year when trees blossom, bluebirds sing, and buttercups burst forth through darkened soil. A feeling of renewed hope fills most every heart…most every heart perhaps—except for yours?Yes, I’ve been there… in that place where not even buttercups, bluebirds, or blossoming trees evoke hope. I have lived in the dark, though full sunshine streams down. I have felt abject loneliness, ...